Hey guys, from Australia here. First off, where I am from escorts are totally legal and regulated. I figured I would at least get that part out of the way to save the legality part of this question. Okay, now on to my dilemma.
I am in college, a senior and I am still a virgin at 22 years old. It’s Ironic too because I dress decent, have a good group of friends, and I work out everyday. However I have always believed my face is ugly. My mom has tried to diagnose me with body dysmorphia, but I think that’s what all mothers do. I’ve overheard plenty of girls whispering that I am unattractive. The few girls I have asked out have responded in what I took as disgust. I can’t help or fix my face, so I am going to be ugly forever. I have felt this way for as long as I can remember and as a result I have never achieved any form of confidence in my life. It really sucks walking around campus with people, and you are just thinking the whole time about how you don’t measure up to anyone else in terms of looks and confidence. I do have a pretty good job for a college student and also play in a band on the side. I don’t think I am lacking in extra curricular activities or depressed because of anything other than feeling like no girl will ever really want me.
The past few months I have become even more depressed because It seems that I work so hard to feel good but still feel like shit. I hate not having confidence because of my v card and facial unattractiveness, which then perpetuates the cycle of not being able to get women because I am insecure. I feel like when I am talking with a girl, all I can think about is how I suck and how there are so many better guys out there that she could easily get. This then oozes out of me in minor ways which women sniff out in an instant. Sometimes I do feel confident because my day is going well, but I find most of the time it sucks.